A couple of weeks ago my leg stopped aching and I have been able to cover a lot more distance than before. It's being 69 days since the day I found that clue; since the moment I found purpose again and a burning desire to do whatever it takes to find my girl. My woman! My love! I found a renewed sense of energy and hope when I found that note. I knew what to do and I knew where to go… but there was still something bugging me, something I quite didn't understand!
"First up then Down"
What does that mean? I still haven't been able to figure that out. It is also interesting to me that she wrote "you know where I went" and not "you know where I am". Does that mean she would be constantly on the move? Probably! Does that mean she won't be waiting for me at any specific place? I surely hope so, that would be smart. But then, what if I get there and she is not… anywhere around? Then what………….
Sometimes I get caught up in thoughts. I guess it won't matter if I don't get there, I guess I shouldn't worry until I get there. But we humans, we worry and wonder, part of the reason we are alive.
I am close now, maybe a 2 day walk away. Just a couple miles to 1828. That is the number of the house we lived in, our house; and that's where I am heading. I have been able to scavenge along the way, and this is my favorite, some cans of tuna in water! I also still have my can opener! If I could only find a wine bottle we could celebrate with tuna and wine when we meet again. Ha, I would have never imagined that was a great combination, but in these times anything you can eat (and drink) is great! But first I need to get there, then she needs to be there!
I suddenly stopped on my tracks. Life is life, and sometimes it seems like you never get a break.. and again this time it proves to be right. The bridge is down, all the bridges are down. I need to cross this river. I can swim I said!!…. I ran close to the river and then suddenly stopped. Because of debris and other stuff, but also because of common sense. I am really too weak to swim, plus the current can take me down for miles (to who knows where) before I even get across.
I stop and look up to the skies, weak and battered. A two day trip has now turned into at least a 5 – 6 day voyage. So close yet so far!
But I still have hope and purpose.
Hold on babe, I will be there soon!
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